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new year...

Resolutions...

1. Live for me.
2. Take each day as a lesson.
3. GET A FRIKKEN 4.0
4. Leave tha past in tha past
5. No more drama...EVER! lol.
6. Cherish amazing friends...(I do have tha best ones!)
7. Forget tha bad times & Cherish tha good
8. Tell mommy bout my piercing & soon to get today tattoo.
9. Don't lose weight, but get back in shape.
10. Live every moment like it's my last.



Lessons:
1. I love and hate the feeling of being in love. Pain is love & Love is pain & it clearly takes a fool to love & I USE TO play tha fool. Love is clearly not for everyone and I think I'm part of that everyone it isn't for...until someone proves me wrong.

2. I'm really not a bad person...I've done bad things that I know will hurt people but they usually deserve...actually...they ALWAYS deserve it. But I've just recently learned that that's not how you do things...that it's not right and Karma is a bitch but it will hit another way and I don't always have to be tha person to inforce it. However...people deserves what they get.

3. Nothing is ever promised...even tomorrow. No one is always gonna be there. People give up and give in...and I just let God.

4. A boifriend is not a necessity nor needed in my life and has never needed them and must've been stupid and a fool to believe that she needed one...she can do without them! Life is a lot less stressful worrying about love. God knows what I need.

New Year...new me?

I am highly anticipating 2009. I don't see myself really changing...but I see myself growing. It's not gonna be a new me...I'm gonna be a better me.
People keep talkin about how everything about them about to be new....I don't think that's necessary for me. I love the me I am today; however, I do need to grow more as a person.

First fall semester of college...I had entirely too much fun...I didn't do terrible but I could've done so much better. I'm determined to get a 4.0 this semester despite all that is against me. I refuse to let anyone or anything get in my way. Please don't be surprised if you don't see me at this and that party.

Love Life?...I highly don't anticipate being in any type of relationship or falling in any type of like or love or some variation of the two. I won't push it back if it's there...but I definitely am not lookin for it in any shape way or form. I've learned to let go and let God. Relationships aren't for everyone...and myself may be included in that everyone that it's not for. Hakuna Matata!

With the people in my life. You guys are AMAZING! I don't know where I would be without my friends. I absolutely love ya'll! I've been through so much this last year alone with just about everything under tha sun and ya'll have been there the whole time to help me through it. Thanks. People would kill to have friends like mines.

The guy(s) in my life. You know who you are. Names aren't needed or neccessary. It's about me and you and that's all that matters, right? Stay true.

Seven Pounds

Sooo...I saw seven pounds. It was really good. I even cried & I'm not a crier...I've never cried during a movie before.

A couple of things...
I really want a killer jelly fish...you never know when you're gonna need one.
I've been stung by a jelly fish before...it was very painful but I imagine nothing like he felt.

Also...
I've been thinking...I'm donating all of my organs...like seriously, it's on my licenses and everything. I had no idea that you could give eyes. My grandfather is blind and I would've loved to have helped him out. I don't even think we looked into that as an option. My grandmother also died of lupus...I wasn't born at the time of her death but had I been, I would've gave her one of mine, all things equal.
I would love to save someon'es life and have myself live on after death saving osmeone's life.

If I was in love, and believed it was forever and nothing on earth could take me away from that person...and I know that that person really needed my heart, I'm almost certain I would give it to them. Being in love means seeing that person that you love happy...no matter what.

All's fair in love & (blank)....you fill it in.

I just happen to be watching Love & Basketball right now. I'm baffled at the line "All's fair in love & basketball." Does that just apply to just basketball? For every time I've fallen in love, it hasn't been fair...well at first but tha fairness quickly disappears. However, I call those first few loves "Love Lessons" without them, I wouldn't be tha perfect love that I am now...Now tha task is to find someone deserving of this Perfect Love...However...it shall be further down on tha list of things that I have to do. First thing...get a 4.0


I just wish that All's fair in love & Artina's life...
I know...perfect right?

Oh How I Hate Thee

On another note...Remember this?


I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots,
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick;
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate it, I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.



gee that's true shit...well not every single word {like combat boots and all} but tha last bit of it...frikken preachin to tha choir...but until you realize that you don't really hate me at all...we shall remain talkless {for lack of a better word}
ps: hate is a strong word...but low key, I hated you for tha 5 seconds it took me to grasp tha concept of you calling me a bitch...NOW I JUST REALLY REALLY REALLY DON'T LIKE YOU :) & doubt that will change.