7.5.09

it has been a minute but im back i guess.

more of first tat

first tattoo

new year...

Resolutions...

1. Live for me.
2. Take each day as a lesson.
3. GET A FRIKKEN 4.0
4. Leave tha past in tha past
5. No more drama...EVER! lol.
6. Cherish amazing friends...(I do have tha best ones!)
7. Forget tha bad times & Cherish tha good
8. Tell mommy bout my piercing & soon to get today tattoo.
9. Don't lose weight, but get back in shape.
10. Live every moment like it's my last.



Lessons:
1. I love and hate the feeling of being in love. Pain is love & Love is pain & it clearly takes a fool to love & I USE TO play tha fool. Love is clearly not for everyone and I think I'm part of that everyone it isn't for...until someone proves me wrong.

2. I'm really not a bad person...I've done bad things that I know will hurt people but they usually deserve...actually...they ALWAYS deserve it. But I've just recently learned that that's not how you do things...that it's not right and Karma is a bitch but it will hit another way and I don't always have to be tha person to inforce it. However...people deserves what they get.

3. Nothing is ever promised...even tomorrow. No one is always gonna be there. People give up and give in...and I just let God.

4. A boifriend is not a necessity nor needed in my life and has never needed them and must've been stupid and a fool to believe that she needed one...she can do without them! Life is a lot less stressful worrying about love. God knows what I need.

New Year...new me?

I am highly anticipating 2009. I don't see myself really changing...but I see myself growing. It's not gonna be a new me...I'm gonna be a better me.
People keep talkin about how everything about them about to be new....I don't think that's necessary for me. I love the me I am today; however, I do need to grow more as a person.

First fall semester of college...I had entirely too much fun...I didn't do terrible but I could've done so much better. I'm determined to get a 4.0 this semester despite all that is against me. I refuse to let anyone or anything get in my way. Please don't be surprised if you don't see me at this and that party.

Love Life?...I highly don't anticipate being in any type of relationship or falling in any type of like or love or some variation of the two. I won't push it back if it's there...but I definitely am not lookin for it in any shape way or form. I've learned to let go and let God. Relationships aren't for everyone...and myself may be included in that everyone that it's not for. Hakuna Matata!

With the people in my life. You guys are AMAZING! I don't know where I would be without my friends. I absolutely love ya'll! I've been through so much this last year alone with just about everything under tha sun and ya'll have been there the whole time to help me through it. Thanks. People would kill to have friends like mines.

The guy(s) in my life. You know who you are. Names aren't needed or neccessary. It's about me and you and that's all that matters, right? Stay true.

Seven Pounds

Sooo...I saw seven pounds. It was really good. I even cried & I'm not a crier...I've never cried during a movie before.

A couple of things...
I really want a killer jelly fish...you never know when you're gonna need one.
I've been stung by a jelly fish before...it was very painful but I imagine nothing like he felt.

Also...
I've been thinking...I'm donating all of my organs...like seriously, it's on my licenses and everything. I had no idea that you could give eyes. My grandfather is blind and I would've loved to have helped him out. I don't even think we looked into that as an option. My grandmother also died of lupus...I wasn't born at the time of her death but had I been, I would've gave her one of mine, all things equal.
I would love to save someon'es life and have myself live on after death saving osmeone's life.

If I was in love, and believed it was forever and nothing on earth could take me away from that person...and I know that that person really needed my heart, I'm almost certain I would give it to them. Being in love means seeing that person that you love happy...no matter what.

All's fair in love & (blank)....you fill it in.

I just happen to be watching Love & Basketball right now. I'm baffled at the line "All's fair in love & basketball." Does that just apply to just basketball? For every time I've fallen in love, it hasn't been fair...well at first but tha fairness quickly disappears. However, I call those first few loves "Love Lessons" without them, I wouldn't be tha perfect love that I am now...Now tha task is to find someone deserving of this Perfect Love...However...it shall be further down on tha list of things that I have to do. First thing...get a 4.0


I just wish that All's fair in love & Artina's life...
I know...perfect right?

Oh How I Hate Thee

On another note...Remember this?


I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots,
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick;
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate it, I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.



gee that's true shit...well not every single word {like combat boots and all} but tha last bit of it...frikken preachin to tha choir...but until you realize that you don't really hate me at all...we shall remain talkless {for lack of a better word}
ps: hate is a strong word...but low key, I hated you for tha 5 seconds it took me to grasp tha concept of you calling me a bitch...NOW I JUST REALLY REALLY REALLY DON'T LIKE YOU :) & doubt that will change.

If I was a boi...

People been tellin me that my blogs be on tha ADD side lol...because I never stick to one subject but whatever lol it's mine!...make your own

I would grow up real quick because no REAL woman would want a be with a boi...she would want a man.
I dunno when bein with a boi became hot...but it will never be hot in my life.
I want somebody who ready fo tha world and will love me down {lol...yes throwback!}

But anywho...another thing I was thinkin about is that Sean Carter's commercial about his new cologne 99. How is rule number 99 "Stay on her mind"? You bein on my mind would rank a lot higher than 99 because if I'm not thinkin about you then you're about to be replaced...SERIOUSLY.

Food for Thought

If you're a liar, please stop lying.
The truth shall set you free.
Honest people don't get caught up...
or set up in that case...think about it.

If you like someone...tell them,
you don't have them now...
so what do you have to lose?

If you've done some grimy things...
it's only too late to apologize when one is lost.
Don't wait to long. Karma is a bitch.

Don't hurt tha ones that actually care about you.
You'll never known when you will truly need them.
Trust me, it'll be at the time when you feel most alone.

Be nice. Always smile.
You never know how bad someone's day is.
A smile could save someone else's life.

Life is too short to hold grudges. Friends don't betray.
I forgive you, but lose my number :)

Being in love is the best feeling in the world;
cherish it...and don't give it up too easily.
You'll regret it in the longrun.

This is so cute!

A game of true or false...

True or False?

Fell in love with tha best best friend in tha world...
Yea he made my world...
I had tha best friend in tha world.
He made my world see tha brightest days...
Always put tha brighest smiles on my face which he said made his days...
Only nigga in tha world that I would give tha world for...
Only nigga in tha world that offered me tha world...
He was tha only best friend I could turn to...NO MATTER WHAT
He tha only best friend who woulda gave me any organ just to see me breath again
Fell in love with tha best best friend in tha world...
Yea he made my world...
He held me together when I was fallin apart
He glued me together when I was broken into pieces
He taught me how to love and trust...
He taught me that one chance was never enough
He was tha best teacher I ever knew...
Tha only best friend who could make me smile even when I wanted to drown
Tha only person in tha world who could make my week with just a text and a smile
fell in love with tha best best friend in tha world...
Yea he made me world...
Until I lost that best friend...
Lost tha best best friend to another girl

You Worry Bout tha Wrong Things...Tha Wrong Things...

Things I worry about....

--MONEY
--BILLS BILLS BILLS
--Due Dates
--my phone
--my loves
--my family...especially Grandpa.
--my friends.
--GRADES.
--my health.
--WHO PAYIN FO MY BOOKS NEXT SEMESTER?!?

and my mom says that I worry about tha wrong things...
just a lil paranoid...

Just Some Randoms...still kinda Paranoid.

Got some randoms going through my head right now....

--HAPPY BIRTHDAY RENISHA!!
---Now plz figure out what you're gonna do for your birthday

--For some reason..I got YOU on tha brain...

--My broke ass...wanna go shoppin...damn...

--I'm missin a couple people something crazy right now...MY NIGGAS!

--I'm on some bum type shit lately....like ugh I don't wanna look in tha mirror because a nigga lookin ROUGH

--Mongol tonight?!?!? Gosh I HOPE SO!

--Why mom dukes come at me like she did on tha phone?! Calm down, why so serious?!

--My back hurts...BAD

--I haven't been able to listen to my own advice about certain things and someones...does that make me a hypocrit? BECAUSE I DON'T FEEL LIKE A HYPOCRIT. lol

--What does tha night have ahead for me?

--For some reason, I feel like dancin!

--I've gotten 7 calls waking me up out my naps...and lately only seem to be getting calls when I'm sleeep.....what's up with that?

--I actually rememeber my dream from yesterday!! I'M SO NOT TELLIN!

--I got a text today something sad to hear about someone...but for some reason, I laughed...and kinda feelin like they deserved it...now I feel bad about it...but KARMA...shows no remorse

--Why does everyone think that this girl named Chelsea looks like me...so many of my friends know her...yet I dunno her lol...that's funny.

--Just read Slappey's blog...Paranoid Rmx....hoooooooooooot!

--I'M STILL OFF A LIL PARANOID!

Yes, I'm jockin...

Just read this really deep blog post by my friend Marc and it encouraged me to entertain myself with tha thought of me finding tha perfect one I would arrest...

My Perfect Prisoner...

(not in tha sense that he's my Prisoner...but in tha sense that I cuffed him as in arrested him)

He would be able to breath life into me...not take it away...not make me feel any pain or make me wanna feel pain or make me wanna cry or just feel o so terrible and low. He would be CPR Certified...

That's it right there...nothing more, nothing less...because if you can do that then I would accept tha rest of you flaws and all.

Until then, patiently waiting for that perfect arrest....

I lost too many friends but I won so many bets

Sooo...woke up today in a sweat...why? Lets just say there IS a such thing as too much clothes lol. All tha while I was thinking I was home by myself...but I kept falling asleep and dreaming I was by myself when in all actuality, everyone was here who lives here. Until like Sunday, I was staying awake to keep from something...i dunno what...but it was in my sleep and I did my best to avoid it...and it worked...until I got home...now I'm dying to sleep lol...just to be alone? I dunno. I needa see a dream interpreter...know a good one?


but back to tha title....I've just been thinking about how many friends I thought myself to have in high school *plus summer and first semester of college*and how many of them actually still exist today. It's funny because I predicted this myself...a nigga done hit jackpot...I MADE TOO MUCH MONEY; I AINT MADE ENOUGH YET. Please tell me, who's next to go because this college life is expensive and I'm feeling all too lucky.

Intro to My World

HeyloHeyloHeylo...
Plz excuse me, I'm off a lil Heartless right now...*If that song isn't tha story of my life* But that's a story for another time.
Back to Intro to My World...
My name is Artina. I have like a zillion aliases *ie.:: TinaBina, Tina, Bina, TooReal, TT, KeKe, TinaBabi...tha list goes on* I'm an Aries...*April Babi*. I'm a freshieee at Michigan State University currently majoring in Finance in hopes of becoming a coproate lawyer. I'm from Detroit...current location is Detroit...but I should be touchin back to East Lansing soon...
My favorite color is red. My favorite movie is Paid In Full. My favortie song is Don't Wanna. My favorite food is spaghetti and french fries. My favorite person is Jamar lol *insider*.
That's bout it lol.
Hmmm...what else is there to know? My major partners in crime are:: Wifey4Lifey, RideOrDie, Qui, & Ebby. Can you say? MY REAL NIGGAS lol...because I can and so can they.
Relationship status? Solo Dolo lol...in other words, single. I'm really not feeling tha arrest right now. I've almost fell for a bunch of WannaBeCuffedNiggas...but lol...I'm too good on that. I been there, done that, made, bought, and sold that shirt. Dunno? Ask about me? I read people all too well to be fallin fo games and under hypnosis..YES I SAID HYPNOSIS
Anywho...I like a bunch of stuff...but dislike few *which needa be mentioned*:: liars, tha color blue, skittles, mint chocolate, one-worded texts, tha word WHATEVER, assumers *which are people who assume*, precipitation *especially snow*, && I think that's about it.
But back to my animosity towards relationships:
just a couple of things...one...i've never been good at relationships....two...i might even go as far as to say i have a phobia against them...lol some may say that's a stretch, but it's not.
It's just that with tha relationships && opposite sex....Tha statement "IT'S ALL BAD" is tha UNDERSTATEMENT of tha CENTURY lol. But real talk... My first serious relationship...Chavez...I fucked up...TERRIBLY...Karma is truly a bitch because that shit done hit me a million times + in sooo many ways...
But I live and I learn and I write a book about it lol. I can give tha best advice about relationship situations and can make someone else's relationship last a Lifetime *great song by tha way* but can't do tha same with myself. It's a gift and a curse at tha same time. I've learned to build a bridge and get over it. Although I have that animosity, I still manage to fall lol...not too tough though...but just enough to get another lesson learned.
But on another note:::...
That's me in a nut shell.